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I have a question about possession if someone could share your thoughts about it, I know you cannot be possessed by someone,but if you invite it's a different story?,my plan was if I give up this reality, I want to be possessed by other spirit because of my family they love me and I love them too,but they would suffer even more if I go suicidal, but if I am possessed it's an illusion of my present as a body that's near them, I am just too lost to think like that, but there is a times I might lose myself to it.
And even if I do I will probably end up entering in lower dimension levels where i will deal with self adjustment.
I have became a victim of my own desire
Because I inspire so greatly to succeed.
I am unable to feel happy or even enjoy myself in this life
I suffer all the time,and i difficulty to find a way to change
I have a talent and I have found my patient and my true potential
but yet there is something greatly missing to succeed with it,
and i have been filling out of place all the time,like not belong here.
almost completely unable to live a full and active life anymore.
I have isolated myself into my own thoughts in hopes to protect myself from having to deal this terrible reality at all.
I am very locked inside myself
Don't misunderstand Life is not terrible, it's actually very beautiful and enjoyable, it's just me. I can't see it, because of other focus and my locks
I sleep too much and sometimes I don't want to awake again To face this life
I feel absolutely lost not only in myself ,but to a whole entire world around me as well.
I know I have fallen in very deep depression and it has been a struggle since from my very childhood as I remember,but those last 3 years completely deep.
I want to change myself and take a advantage over my sadness that I am having, and I know there is a way to do it outside this reality
I blame my self and I feel I am punishing myself for my unsuccessful life lead. And I am fully aware what's happening to me, but I am dealing with difficulty to change.
I have been surrounding myself with positive thoughts and trying to call upon Angelic presents.
focusing to connect other higher consciousness to grasp upon for someone to help me.
I have been looking for answers, I have tried to look up for them through my dreams and meditation even through astral projection.
started to educated myself what is beyond the physical. I found inconsistencies
some of my known believes to me where flipped over when I started to search for answers, I started to listen to philosophers
and read books and what I heard made since to me about higher awareness and conciseness and about this holographic reality where we are in now
to experience,explore and evolve,
whatever I tried didn't work I feel so limited like a barrier on front of me that cannot be crossed.
All i want is to enjoy my life and be happy with my family meet my guide hug it and cry my heart out, I want my peace that I never had.
I wanted someone to hear my voice,but I didn't received any answer with my past 3 years on focusing to it.
I have no idea or understanding anymore what is the real truth to this.. is this who I am,lost and unable?
I don't think i will get out of this nicely, I am too lost in my only age of 23 yet so early. I felt like a rising werewolf who waits for the moon to awake, but it just never shined to me.
I am starting to feel hatred on all of this and this boiling pain in me. what a pity.
I am always nice to people and was there to help , but it just never happen to me, if it ever did I made really bad decisions.
I never was motivated to finish something was always flying unstable in my thoughts.
I actually want to keep fighting, but i have lost trust in myself, in times i feel i will break and will do something stupid and will hurt myself.
That is way i want to prepare myself as I have been keeping educate myself what can be expected beyond the physical
That's way i have decided to go from this reality to deal with my problems, issues and on my wish fulfillment.
I will try to find myself somewhere else since i haven't done it successfully here
but i want to do it by not harming my close ones, that is why I was wondering about the being possessed.
I feel tired and deeply lost,
Do not feel pity to me,I just wanted to express myself.
It's my suffer not yours all I am asking is if the possession can work
Doctors here won't help me and do not advise me them!.
My apologize for disturbing with my story here,but i don't now where else to put myself on.
I don't even now what is right and what is wrong for me, I even don't now why i put this post on this forum
That is how deeply I have lost myself..
I also attached my creative video, where I putted my self in dream like worlds.
To inspire someone else what can be found out there.
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Now on a positive note: I loved your video! You have great capacity of creating beauty and it would be awesome if you could explore that. Great artists many times express their pain through art and because it is so full of emotion, their artworks are so fantastic. Through this emotion filled art they are able to touch people's lives. My humble suggestion (I know it's easier said than done) is instead of giving into this pain, use it as a tool to do great things.
Wish you all the best.
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